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i'm obsessed.

hazelnut. from Paige Brunt on Vimeo.

"i've humbled you, and i've lectured you and you have borne it as noone could have born it. maybe it is our imperfections that make us so perfect for one another."

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as i was watching this scene yesterday, it struck me at how true this quote is of marriage.  i speak specifically of how two people can help each other strive to be better.  as mr. knightly suggests: john and i, imperfect as we are as individuals, are more perfect together.  john helps me each day to be a more patient and kind person.  truly, "i feel so full of error, so mistaken in my make-up to deserve [him]".  but he, in his patient, loving way, encourages me each day to be a better person.

i can't even count the number of times that i have been frustrated with the beebes and he lovingly reminds me to not let her fussiness/refusal to nap/teething crankiness affect my mood.  if i'm in a humble mood then i take his advice and make a serious commitment to be better.  the trick is humility.  and it is sometimes so so hard to be humble, isn't it?

last night, we had a long conversation.  and i thanked and thanked john for all that he teaches me and that he doesn't give up on me, despite my resilience.  and he thanked me for the things i do to help him strengthen his weaknesses as well.  i went to bed feeling quite whole with him beside me and a sleeping baby in her crib on the other.

john, thanks for making our life together so magical.

some things about us.

1}  we have breakfast for dinner at least once a week.
2}  our agreed-upon nickname for hazel over the past few weeks has been "the beebes"
3}  she has developed a habit of eating ice cream every night, and he lets her
4}  sometimes we have full texting conversations purely in emojis.
5}  we have collectively watched all the episodes of 24, big bang theory, star trek (well, okay, most of star trek, there's a lot!), breaking bad, psych, and many, many more!  (we're kind of t.v. junkies)
6}  frisbee golfing is a must at least once a month
7}  he didn't like condiments or diet coke, and then she ruined him ;)
8}  he sings incorrect lyrics to almost every tune, and she corrects him
9}  sometimes when hazelnut is sleeping, we sit in bed and watch videos of her
10}  we plan our halloween costumes months in advance
11}  our first kiss was during "bill and ted's excellent adventure"
12}  saturday mornings usually consist of a family snuggle
13}  he can quote "dumb and dumber" word-for-word
14}  she never knows he's quoting "dumb and dumber"
15}  10-20% of our days are spent trying to get the beebes to laugh, and catch it on camera

the triple-bypass burger.

sometimes, you hear about an amazing place to eat in atlanta.  and, because you live in atlanta, you really really want to try it.  so, even though it's a bar, and even though they won't let you bring your baby inside, you go anyway, and get it to go, and eat it in your car.  sometimes, that "triple-bypass burger" is totally worth it.  

^^^^ you also get a glimpse of the mary margaret house, and reminisce of days reading gone with the wind, and being so furious about the ending you could cry.

you then decide to see what's what at piedmont park, because you've heard of piedmont park and you're generally curious.

and then sometimes, in the afternoon, you undress your baby down to her drawers, because you live in atlanta after all, and it's so dang hot outside!

then you call it a day, go home, and eat peach cobbler.

the darlingest.

happy 5 months, baby girl.

today.

today i spent $140 dollars to be told my daughter has a cold.

yep.  i'm one of those moms.

i was overwhelmed and alone and could tell something was wrong with my baby, i just didn't know what.  {and for the record, it is really hard to tell if your baby has an ear infection when you left your otoscope back home....}

all things aside, i'm stoked she isn't seriously sick, or that i have to try to get her to take oral antibiotics {she still vehemently refuses anything but the breast}

and, $140 or not, she's still totally worth it.