well, i am officially full-term today. when i woke up this morning and realized i was 37 weeks, a feeling of impending doom hit me. this is really happening! was all i could think. and also, i'm not even close to ready. besides having a sick, stubborn, naughty toddler the past week, which has made me both terrified to bring a newborn into the house and also put me behind in all my cleaning/baby prep, i also realized that my hospital bag isn't packed, the infant carseat isn't in the car, i don't have any hand sanitizer at the ready in our house.... and so forth.
i looked around the house this morning and thought, if i went into labor right now, i wouldn't even be close to ready. now of course, if this baby is on the same timeline as hazel was, then i still have two weeks to get ready. but, just like the boy scouts, i like to be prepared.
so after i got home from my ob appointment, i cleaned the house pretty furiously. i attempted to pack my hospital bag, and then we had a glorious toddler eating battle at dinner over german pancakes and sent a hungry toddler to bed, and i just cried and cried.
things are getting crazy over here.
and just when i had hit my limit for the evening, a good friend who is due on the same day texted me, "happy full term to you!" and i just had to smile.
despite the craziness that has hijacked my brain the past couple of weeks (and will probably set up shop until i have this baby in my arms, lets be honest), i know that it will all be worth it. looking at our announcement on this blog, simple as it was, of hazel's birth has reminded me of that.